Let me first start off by saying that I went to two spiritual guides who told me I needed to start journaling. I am a horrible a speller and writer. So excuse my grammatical mistakes..and here goes my first blog!
I recently went through some major life changes. My fiance and I broke up in May after dating for many years and being engaged since July. Breaking up is never easy but sometimes it's the best decision for both parties. I loathe the term "broken engagement". Mainly because I do not feel broken. Extremely disapointed would be a better way to describe how I have felt over the last four months. Although my emotions change daily. Somedays I am relieved. Somedays I am bitter. Somedays I sob in my car to sappy love songs. But most days I wake up happy knowing that we (together) made the best decision for what we both needed at the time. My fiance was my bestfriend and someone whom I adore more than anyone in the world. However, we both knew that we could not provide each other what the other one needed in a life partner. I recently related my breaking as the same feeling I felt when I didn't get into an Ivy League college. At first I was devastated ..thought my world had ended and hated the idea of becoming a bobcat. But in the end I had a wonderful college experience and realized everything happens for a reason. I was meant to go to Bates where I made the most incredible life long friends and experienced a magical four years. I was meant to go to UConn for my doctorate and meet my fiance at UConn Law bar. I was meant to fall in complete and utter love with him and share many wonderful times over 4 1/2 years. But in the end I know we weren't meant to be.
So I have entered the new chapter of my life and I am looking forward to what is "meant to be". I know that I was meant to buy my beautiful house in Mystic, CT. When I walk into the house I immediately feel at home and I am looking forward to creating new memories there. I love that my commute to work is only ten minutes! (side note I LOVE LOVE my job) Last year I commuted an hour each way and dreaded the drive. And when I get home from work I love putting on my running sneakers and jogging 1/2 mile into downtown Mystic. Mystic is best known for the 80's movie Mystic Pizza starring Julia Roberts. When I was a kid I used to watch the movie during the winter months dreaming about the last day of school when we would head the my parents summer home in Groton Long Point, CT. GLP is a small summer community three miles from Mystic. There will be another blog about GLP in the future!
Mystic is a very friendly town and I am having a blast exploring it. There are so many good restaurants and shops. Each morning I walk across the drawbridge to get coffee and the view of the ocean brings an intense feeling of peace over my entire body! I am so looking forward the halloween parade and having trick or treaters come to my front door. I am looking forward to thanksgiving and my first Christmas when the town is lite up with white twinkle lights and green wreaths with big red bows! I am looking forward to starting my first fire in my original 1926 fire place and finally having a christmas tree. Things are looking up and I am in a really good place...I no longer feel broken but whole again. More later!
